Miscarriage, Meaning, Catharsis

podcast on miscarriage, meaning, catharsis

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I felt strongly called to speak about this subject(s), after coming across an art book that I created in 2007 – Growth-Catharsis – and seeing it with fresh eyes, whilst currently trying to conceive.

The book project was a direct ‘transcribing’ of my experience at the time of miscarriage. Now, I have access to multiple forums where we are talking at length about womb-work, about womben’s experiences, Life from womb-centred perspectives. At the time of my miscarriage, and more-so 10 yrs before (as I talk about in this podcast), there was no language around what was happening and what my ‘choices’ were.

In fact, in retrospect, it felt like the men in my life made the decision by default: the world was their privilege – their ‘logic’ held the sway in terms of what was ‘allowed’ to transpire, or not. I speak at the end of the podcast, to this; to what it is when we have Life trying to expansively manifest through us, but are convinced by the superficial, fear-full, ‘logic’ of “this cannot happen right now”.

Catharsis, painting which evolved into another painting…

This is such a metaphor for the frictional polemic between patriarchy and the sacred feminine, and it makes me think strongly about the deep masculine – who likely would have turned up/ stuck around, if I’d demanded it and gone ahead with my pregnancies… and the toxic feminine, who submits inappropriately, backs down when the slightest resistance in met, and boils in resentment of ‘what should’ve been’.

Seeing this complex entanglement of 4-cornered dynamic: sacred feminine ‘vs’ toxic masculine, crossed by deep masculine ‘vs’ toxic feminine, helps me see what our solution can be: the toxicity is essentially weakness or lack of maturity – it’s operating from fear-tension-pain, rather than sovereignty-bliss-expansion – both are valid realities. Both need the positive aspects of each other, in order to move forward: both are trying in their own way to keep the world safe and working: one from tense controlling, the other from floppy passivity. Neither are ‘better’ than the other: this is about how we bring this divided quadrant into yin-yang harmony…

Self-Evolution, painting from 2007 – collection of Glasgow Women’s Library

I hope that this podcast can be heard outwith any cultural and societal negative projections onto abortion and/ or womben’s sovereignty in their mind-body-spirit. This open sharing is a gift to our collective womb consciousness, a calling to let go of our shared wounds and our frictional relationship between the yin and the yang of humanity.

The book mentioned will be shared on my Patreon hopefully later today.

Much love, and gratitude for listening and witnessing xx

Menstruation And The Whole Woman

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This is one of at least two podcasts in this series on menstruation: the core of our feminine life and identity, the cycle of fertility and creative potential, the solution to the world’s problems with disequilibrium and even violence….

cat woman lives from her womb, painting, 2002-16

In this podcast I’m speaking to the reality of women’s bleeding being something divine, wholesome, realigning, energising: our blood is the source of Life, and thus we can and should find great enrichment in its moving through us and going out into the world.

Instead of ceremony and gratitude, many of us have intensely negative bio-feedback through our cycles. This is intimately related to what is going on around us (and within us): to both our life and the history of the women in our family, to our habits and relationship with our body-mind-spirit, and to what is transpiring each month.

detail from painting: cat woman lives from her womb

Modern life in general is very much not aligned to women’s well-being. It most certainly is NOT aligned to women’s taking good, deep self-care, and to working within her monthly rhythms. So what should we do about that? What can we do to first limit the disharmony in our month, and then to begin easing ourselves into a more appropriate pattern that our body tells us is right?

The clue is in the question: ‘our body tells us’ – here’s my first podcast on menstruation – look out for the next one soon, within the rest of this Sacred Feminine series.

podcast on menstruation

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

Women And Language

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I felt a sentience around language rise up in the past year or so – centred around the embodied sense of my own not-yet-learned mother tongue, which would’ve anchored my intimate relationship with land, season, community and all things. I felt this all aligning inside me – a ripeness of it being ready to awake, and the unfolding of a wider view of the world, unrestricted by the rigidity of mainstream language norms.

A podcast with Tiokasing Ghosthorse reconnected this non-linear sentience with my front-lobe, conventional-logic mind. His elegant explanation around the quantum difference between his people’s Lakota language, and English confirmed my growing intuitive around indigenous languages, and what is lost when they are undermined – or violently oppressed (as with Scottish Gàidhlig): a people’s intimate relationship-with-all-things is so effectively, deeply censored, by their having a language of competition, separation, compartmentalising replace their own.

English in particular is a language rooted in Empire and subjugation of all things natural, papal power and assumption of supreme white man as god authority: this separates us profoundly from spirit, from feeling, from deeper knowing. A language with such roots also asks us to stay at the front of the brain pushing forward, to push from the front of the tongue and mouth forcing our will on the world. It makes us ignore heart and pelvis, and thus to lose the immense creative power of our being whole, and using the sum-of-our-parts as one great force for Life.

It’s powerful to live in a time when we are relearning the many languages that have been oppressed through destruction of our indigenous tongues: ecological, wholistic word-structures, the language of sentience and of the sacredness of Life, of the liberated mind-body-spirit – and the language of the deep feminine.

podcast on women and language, and the divine feminine

My own life has been blessed and enriched both through being immersed in multiple languages from countries other than my own (German, Greek, Italian), and through re-finding languages that I hadn’t understood earlier were so incredibly valuable, and necessary – languages with depth, meaning and treasure in them; the language of pain, the language of poverty, the voice of my pelvis and core energy source, and my own land’s mother tongue.

I spent at least 3 decades immersed in the intuitive-spontaneous act of making art, largely to gain alignment with Truth, with the synchronicity of Life – thus to stabilise and harmonise everything around me.

But what unfolded in parallel with this fluency in the language of the sentient world, was a proficiency in the language of the sacred feminine: this vital force so powerfully held in the dark from peoples’ lives, and so efficiently kept from our structures of power.

As I feel the language of the deep feminine flowing through me, via my knowing my own body more and more, through unblocking stuck patterns, through speaking emotion when it calls out, through finding throat-lungs-heart-mind interconnectedness via my mother-tongue… Through listening to the voice that flows through all things – I begin to be whole, and I become a part of a whole world again. Not a static, cold, dead world of ‘logic’ but a – vibrant, dynamic, alive world of Life.

I am an intimate part of this Life-full world, as we all are: we’re all movers within the intimate fabric of the world; through our knowing its vibration through our whole being – through speaking the True language of all things – we become fluent speakers of our indigenous wisdom.

And here’s an additional video on Learning A Language Successfully 🙂

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

what is the divine feminine?

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It’s kind of absurd, kind of very metaphorical, that I haven’t yet delved deep into this conversation publicly: The Divine Feminine is THE theme at the core of my work, my life, my healing, my sense of life purpose and my optimism about the future of humankind on our planet and in the universe.

On the one hand, not speaking directly to the deep feminine is natural – at least in our normalised-numb-distracted-dissipated state the sacred feminine is absolutely intangible. The sacred feminine must be lived and felt from an awakened whole, and it must be free to move, grow and evolve – to fill the spaces between all things – to act always spontaneously and intuitively, and often unexpectedly.

On the other hand, there are deep, embodied reasons – real, remembered, present-day and archaic realities, which stop women talking about the divinity of their sacred sentient experience: persecution of the depths of the feminine is NOT a thing of the past – it is a terrifying modern-day force that has infiltrated even the minds of women to such a degree, that they will defend (literally) to the death the ‘necessity’ of their being manipulated and tortured, in terrible pain and suffering, and/ or numb and utterly disconnected – rather than there existing myriad choices for being healed to feeling and wholeness.

This too might sound kind of absurd and excessive, but we’re living in an age where the veils are being dramatically pulled away from both the evil origins of gynaecology, and the current violent practises against women’s bodies’ well-being by medical establishment. (If you’d like to hear more about this, look at e.g. Kim Anami’s blog, and The Bleeding Edge on Netflix.)

My genuine belief is that the sacred feminine is at the core of the world’s healing, it’s transformation, the very-necessary solutions for our collective harmony and even our continued existence: deep, wholistic sentience; embodied wisdom; empathy for all things; synchrony and interconnectedness; cooperation rather than destructive friction; very-long-term thinking, feeling and planning.

podcast on what is the divine feminine?

These are all aspects of reality that have been quelled and kept down, ridden-over by superficial logic, short-term profit, peak-pleasure, abundance and power for the few: traits of a toxic masculine-superiority model of ‘reality’, which is crumbling as we speak. Patriarchy is dissolving, having ridden everything into the ground as much as it possibly can be, and we’re beginning to consider what the world might look like if there a more balanced yin-yang.

We actually live in incredibly positive times: real change will always come from a shift in consciousness, and therefor it’ll grow-inspire-virally from the bottom upwards, rather than being forced on the masses by aggressive top-down control (as the last stewards of patriarchy are trying to promote via the hard-right politics of the ‘western’ world).

We are already entering a more empathetic, sustainable world-mind, even though it might seem like too little too late. But we were never going to change our collective direction, until we actually have to – and until there were viable, worthy, pleasurable options…. Once a woman understands the reason for her pain, occupies fully the power in her core, and awakens to the literally infinite transformative potential of her pleasure – there is no going back to the medieval mindset!

E.g. once women collectively begin to birth naturally, in tune with the orgasmic reflex that is built into our bioreality to expand our mystical conscious interconnectedness, we as humans will begin to be equipped to do our proper work in the world – without the violent oppression of our shared natural vitality and embodied super-wisdom.

Probably the biggest reason I didn’t delve into this profound discourse yet is that it simply wasn’t the time. And now it is.

Though it can be intensely challenging to be both sentient to the immensity of the world’s unnecessary pain and suffering – and to speak openly and vulnerably about it – there is a field opening for us all to connect through our sensitivity. We’re beginning to weave a harmonious, biodiverse collective fabric-of-minds, very different to the previous-current hierarchical structures of power struggle (which have kept us separate and thus in competition through the friction of that separation). Our expression of all of our pain (the pain of all of us) is a vital part of our weaving this fabric, as the feeling of the pain is a necessary part of our being connected and empathetic.

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – and see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,