Deep Taproot vs Worldwide-Ticket 'Freedom'

This podcast came through as a channelled message – from a seed thought about this love-hate struggle I’ve had with trying to become rooted in any one place… The feeling of being torn between long-term stability, and being free to think-be-do what I want, when-how-if I want.

This led me to think: why do we buy into this idea of ‘freedom’ requiring a plane journey and the affluence to book a flight just about anywhere in the world? Supposedly to keep ourselves inspired about life, stimulated and refreshed, far away from our ‘boring’ normal life … But how can this be so ‘good’ for us, when it has such an immense negative impact on the planet?

Inquiring deep into this, and blessed by having had a very small monthly income this past 6 months, which has caused me to stay home more, to think less about travelling afar… It occurs to me that this fable of ‘freedom’ being elsewhere and involving a great deal of money and resources – leaving a huge trail of destruction both behind us and often in the place that we’re visiting – there’s something that wants to be unveiled there.

Why are we conditioned to be so deeply dissatisfied with the place that we are in, that throwing ourselves half-way around the globe is the only remedy for? What would it feel like instead to be deeply rooted and satisfied, fulfilled and blissful, right where we are?

Listen to the podcast, to get some ideas:

podcast on deep taproot vs mimicking freedom through consumerism…

How can we become more connected with everything around us, and thus become liberated in our lives – rather than having to seek a parody of freedom by taking an aeroplane to another culture and climate? See my Living In Gift page to hear about my Zero Budget Millionaire course and my one-on-one mentoring programme The Divine Creative.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

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Miscarriage, Meaning, Catharsis

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I felt strongly called to speak about this subject(s), after coming across an art book that I created in 2007 – Growth-Catharsis – and seeing it with fresh eyes, whilst currently trying to conceive.

The book project was a direct ‘transcribing’ of my experience at the time of miscarriage. Now, I have access to multiple forums where we are talking at length about womb-work, about womben’s experiences, Life from womb-centred perspectives. At the time of my miscarriage, and more-so 10 yrs before (as I talk about in this podcast), there was no language around what was happening and what my ‘choices’ were.

In fact, in retrospect, it felt like the men in my life made the decision by default: the world was their privilege – their ‘logic’ held the sway in terms of what was ‘allowed’ to transpire, or not. I speak at the end of the podcast, to this; to what it is when we have Life trying to expansively manifest through us, but are convinced by the superficial, fear-full, ‘logic’ of “this cannot happen right now”.

Catharsis, painting which evolved into another painting…

This is such a metaphor for the frictional polemic between patriarchy and the sacred feminine, and it makes me think strongly about the deep masculine – who likely would have turned up/ stuck around, if I’d demanded it and gone ahead with my pregnancies… and the toxic feminine, who submits inappropriately, backs down when the slightest resistance in met, and boils in resentment of ‘what should’ve been’.

Seeing this complex entanglement of 4-cornered dynamic: sacred feminine ‘vs’ toxic masculine, crossed by deep masculine ‘vs’ toxic feminine, helps me see what our solution can be: the toxicity is essentially weakness or lack of maturity – it’s operating from fear-tension-pain, rather than sovereignty-bliss-expansion – both are valid realities. Both need the positive aspects of each other, in order to move forward: both are trying in their own way to keep the world safe and working: one from tense controlling, the other from floppy passivity. Neither are ‘better’ than the other: this is about how we bring this divided quadrant into yin-yang harmony…

Self-Evolution, painting from 2007 – collection of Glasgow Women’s Library

I hope that this podcast can be heard outwith any cultural and societal negative projections onto abortion and/ or womben’s sovereignty in their mind-body-spirit. This open sharing is a gift to our collective womb consciousness, a calling to let go of our shared wounds and our frictional relationship between the yin and the yang of humanity.

The book mentioned will be shared on my Patreon hopefully later today.

Much love, and gratitude for listening and witnessing xx

deep-feminine activism

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I always thought of ‘activism’ as an effort-full thing, and not something I could relate to as a high-sensory sentient… Until I got into really occupying my whole being, and realised that there’s a very necessary activity-in-the-world that is required of us, of the deep feminine, if the world is going to even survive.

painting by Jennifer Beattie, 1995

In this video I’m talking to how our connecting, interbeing, and responding to the mainstream discourse is so very necessary in the present day. Our activism now is less about placards and sit-ins, and much more about occupying ourselves, our cycles, our collective intention – and communicating this with the world.

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This activity of showing up as a whole woman might be as radical as lifting our skirts, or it might be as simple reading an article on toxins in sanitary products so that we can make better choices about our well-being.

It might be as subtle as taking an hour off to *feel* when our bleeding begins, or taking 4 days at home every month to free-bleed. It might be as huge as exposing our abuser via the court system, or showing our partner what most liberates our pleasure in bed.

Whatever we do/ be/ share, it has never been more important and possible for us to be heard. Please consider taking up the challenge, and starting making more connection to deeper truths and realities – taking the lid off of women’s voice and truth, and supporting each other in being part of Life.

This activism might be as ‘small’ as starting a blog to share the truth of our everyday, or calling out bigotry in language online; every wee action is a potent stitch and thread in a stronger, more vibrant fabric…

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

PS I’ll be announcing a new course/ programme this year, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself… In the meantime:

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And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

FREE-BLEEDING AND LOVING OUR MENSTRUATION

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What is the most radical action we can take to change the world, right now?

Occupy our bleeding.

The state of our collective menses is profoundly disturbing: I don’t want to focus on that here, but it is vital that we understand the deeply unhealthy context in which we find ourselves as menstruating humans.

I’m speaking in this podcast around what it actually IS to embrace and liberate our bleeding, our cycle – to have it as a sacred and even a mystical aspect of our healing journey, our source of power, our finding our place in the world and good relationship with all things.

Menstruation is a gift: it is the greatest gift to humanity and to the planet – but even if we’ve gotten away from the idea of ‘curse’ or ‘dirty’, we are still very far from understanding how our bleeding is the source of our well-being, our potent fertility and life-fullness, our harmonious collective vitality and peace.

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Until we realise it as such, we’re committed into a horrific bondage with the pain-intervention-violence which is at the core of the medicalisation (and profiting) of our natural body-mind-spirit.

We live in a time where we’re being blessedly enriched by global information networks, which are letting huge swathes of work around female well-being flourish – with vibrant, stabilised bleeding at the centre of it all.

Please look into this further; please share information and inspiration about how we can free women from the pain and suffering that has been accepted by western medicine as ‘normal’, and into the self-realising, empowered, embodied wisdom cycles that ARE her birth-right.

This is possibly the final podcast in this series on The Divine Feminine – I’m about to launch into another series on How To Live A Dream Life Abroad, alongside promoting my beautiful Italian home for sale…

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

PS I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

The Deep Feminine Wound

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We can talk about The Feminine Wound on multifarious levels; from the physical and psychological, the emotional and the economic, the political and the spiritual and the sexual…. As womben, our body-mind-spirit has been – and continues to be – systematically abused and oppressed literally from conception to grave.

still form, painting, 1996

I am talking in today’s podcast to our wholistic experience as female human beings in the contemporary ‘developed’ world: as individual keepers of womb, and as a collective momentum and potential in human evolution.

Our individual and collective potentiality – our vitality, our sense of self and of purpose, our feeling secure and stable in the world: these are areas that have been neglected and diminished by ourselves and those around us. We’ve been discouraged from… okay, no – we’ve been violently brainwashed away from… trusting our own body wisdom, knowing our inherent ability to heal, and experiencing our intimate synchrony with both nature and the human-created world around us.

holding, painting, 1999

Is this why we live in such dystopian times? I believe so… I know so, from my deepening connection with my own feminine intuition – which speaks in a kind of flowing-thought-image-form, about the path that we are walking on together – the choices we are accumulating into realities in front of us.

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What would our world look like if womben knew our capacity for connection, healing, deep synchronising wisdom, wholeness: if we were all inspired-taught-trained from the earliest of ages to embrace our sentience and to use our power most advantageously-for-all.

What would we all be experiencing, if womben were effortlessly inhabiting their body-mind-spirit, and navigating not from fear-tension-pain, but from a spiralling upwards cycle of presence, relaxed-alertness and expansion?

the whole voice, painting, 2018

Many of us are exploring these threads of inquiry, and weaving our work into a far finer fabric of reality than currently prevails. Rather than accepting our being diminished into power-flowing-only-outwards. And rather than ‘being permitted’ to express ourselves via only incredibly conservative, society-sanctioned, miniaturised versions of ‘reality’…

We’re now speaking across the planet from our wombs, our whole sentience, our deepest transcendental bliss, our trauma – and we’re finding our wholeness, our ability to move harmoniously in the world, through this.

The whole womban is being witnessed, as we’re beginning to witness ourselves.

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

water and the divine feminine: flow and well-being

ancient natural forms with rainwater: Corrie , Arran, Scotland

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This is a podcast that came from a sacred place; where I collect spring water for drinking, a drive and a walk from my home – my growing relationship with the place, the water (and the blessed act of reverently gathering spring water). The words came from a spontaneous ‘calling’, which I explain in this podcast – so I’ll allow the words to flow here:

Niki De Saint Phalle’s tarot garden, Capalbio, Italy
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the Tammaro river near Sassinoro, BN, Italy

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

Menstruation And The Whole Woman

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This is one of at least two podcasts in this series on menstruation: the core of our feminine life and identity, the cycle of fertility and creative potential, the solution to the world’s problems with disequilibrium and even violence….

cat woman lives from her womb, painting, 2002-16

In this podcast I’m speaking to the reality of women’s bleeding being something divine, wholesome, realigning, energising: our blood is the source of Life, and thus we can and should find great enrichment in its moving through us and going out into the world.

Instead of ceremony and gratitude, many of us have intensely negative bio-feedback through our cycles. This is intimately related to what is going on around us (and within us): to both our life and the history of the women in our family, to our habits and relationship with our body-mind-spirit, and to what is transpiring each month.

detail from painting: cat woman lives from her womb

Modern life in general is very much not aligned to women’s well-being. It most certainly is NOT aligned to women’s taking good, deep self-care, and to working within her monthly rhythms. So what should we do about that? What can we do to first limit the disharmony in our month, and then to begin easing ourselves into a more appropriate pattern that our body tells us is right?

The clue is in the question: ‘our body tells us’ – here’s my first podcast on menstruation – look out for the next one soon, within the rest of this Sacred Feminine series.

podcast on menstruation

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

Women And Language

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I felt a sentience around language rise up in the past year or so – centred around the embodied sense of my own not-yet-learned mother tongue, which would’ve anchored my intimate relationship with land, season, community and all things. I felt this all aligning inside me – a ripeness of it being ready to awake, and the unfolding of a wider view of the world, unrestricted by the rigidity of mainstream language norms.

A podcast with Tiokasing Ghosthorse reconnected this non-linear sentience with my front-lobe, conventional-logic mind. His elegant explanation around the quantum difference between his people’s Lakota language, and English confirmed my growing intuitive around indigenous languages, and what is lost when they are undermined – or violently oppressed (as with Scottish Gàidhlig): a people’s intimate relationship-with-all-things is so effectively, deeply censored, by their having a language of competition, separation, compartmentalising replace their own.

English in particular is a language rooted in Empire and subjugation of all things natural, papal power and assumption of supreme white man as god authority: this separates us profoundly from spirit, from feeling, from deeper knowing. A language with such roots also asks us to stay at the front of the brain pushing forward, to push from the front of the tongue and mouth forcing our will on the world. It makes us ignore heart and pelvis, and thus to lose the immense creative power of our being whole, and using the sum-of-our-parts as one great force for Life.

It’s powerful to live in a time when we are relearning the many languages that have been oppressed through destruction of our indigenous tongues: ecological, wholistic word-structures, the language of sentience and of the sacredness of Life, of the liberated mind-body-spirit – and the language of the deep feminine.

podcast on women and language, and the divine feminine

My own life has been blessed and enriched both through being immersed in multiple languages from countries other than my own (German, Greek, Italian), and through re-finding languages that I hadn’t understood earlier were so incredibly valuable, and necessary – languages with depth, meaning and treasure in them; the language of pain, the language of poverty, the voice of my pelvis and core energy source, and my own land’s mother tongue.

I spent at least 3 decades immersed in the intuitive-spontaneous act of making art, largely to gain alignment with Truth, with the synchronicity of Life – thus to stabilise and harmonise everything around me.

But what unfolded in parallel with this fluency in the language of the sentient world, was a proficiency in the language of the sacred feminine: this vital force so powerfully held in the dark from peoples’ lives, and so efficiently kept from our structures of power.

As I feel the language of the deep feminine flowing through me, via my knowing my own body more and more, through unblocking stuck patterns, through speaking emotion when it calls out, through finding throat-lungs-heart-mind interconnectedness via my mother-tongue… Through listening to the voice that flows through all things – I begin to be whole, and I become a part of a whole world again. Not a static, cold, dead world of ‘logic’ but a – vibrant, dynamic, alive world of Life.

I am an intimate part of this Life-full world, as we all are: we’re all movers within the intimate fabric of the world; through our knowing its vibration through our whole being – through speaking the True language of all things – we become fluent speakers of our indigenous wisdom.

And here’s an additional video on Learning A Language Successfully 🙂

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – plus see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

WOMEN AND ANGER

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Women’s anger is still one of the greatest taboos of our modern culture, in relation to our health, wealth and happiness. We are allowed to be present at the table, supported in relationships, feel safe in the community, belong and be held in the family – so long as we keep a lid on our rage.

This has an immense negative effect particularly on our mental and emotional health, as we stuff down emotions that should be effortlessly allowed to rise and disperse.

Years and decades of this, and we become chronically under-energised: our vitality gets in the habit of just holding in, and our whole being begins to literally wind down for the end…

Why is our anger such a vital force in the world? What is not happening because women are not stamping their foot, raising their voice, expressing a non-negotiable NO? What is continuing to unfold, because we are not getting angry?

Apart from our own health and sense of self being severely undermined, our whole collective direction is compromised; women’s standing up for a world which isn’t based on unsustainable patriarchal abuses of power – this involves speaking emotionally and assertively in every area of Life.

painting: laughing at anger, 2001
painting: laughing at anger, 2001

A deep feminine voice unleashed, at the appropriate moment, in a humble and respectful way, and towards a situation that is malleable and ripe for change, can have immense transformative effect. It can halt rivers and change the direction of civilisations.

In contrast, that same voice, held back when it is being called for, leaves a void – where abusive power can continue to fill the space-between-all-things.

I have often felt that if we’re not angry about the state of the world, we’re not looking at it very deeply at all. In this podcast, I talk about how we can better use our anger as the alchemical force that it is supposed to be:

Please feel welcome to comment under this blog, about your own perspective and experience of anger.

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – and see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,

Creativity and Birth: Divine Creative Flow

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The Divine or Sacred Feminine seemed like a theme ‘out of my league’ as I begin this challenge, but entering the creative Flow with an anchor as profound as this couldn’t help but bring some magic to light!

I immediately realised that the divine feminine has been at the core of my whole life-work, healing, purpose… and so this series endeavours to use that very immersion to transmit some practical wisdom or insight into what The Divine Flow really is.

It is genuinely mystical, sometimes even miraculous, what happens when we step into the creative void, with a lightly-held anchor like this. We all have access to the Divine, we all are embodiment of powerful creative expansive forces; there is no-one on this Earth who isn’t an energetic manifestation in flesh, and who doesn’t have the capacity to align deeper and deeper with their inherent ability as a kind of cosmic alchemist.

Radiance, painting on wood, 2019

We can understand this mystical miraculousness, by looking at the creative act: both the engagement in artistic immersion, and the immersion of a human womb-an in the ecstatic flow of birthing a child. Both pull away veils from our relationship with divine creative flow. Both demand significant self-awareness (or peace within self), surrender, willingness to allow the unknown to unfold.

And both are examples of human consciousness in union with The Infinite – whether you name that as a deity, see it as pure field of intelligence, or whatever – a real, tangible, omni-and-ever-present magic in all of reality, that calls us to commune in it.

In the unfolding of this Divine Feminine conversation, I’m becoming more and more aware of the limitations (and/ or possible potential for misinterpretation) of the patriarchal, polemic language that is modern English. It can feel clunky to speak about mystical shit with little nuggets of truth (with a small ‘t’!) that only hint at it, and that can only be accessed by someone nearby Truth, who just needs a wee tweak to help them delve into it… This language that so many of us are using, wasn’t designed to promote harmony and peace, joy and illumination! (blogcast number 4 in this series will discuss language-and-the-deep-feminine further)

As ‘mystical alchemists’ in this place and time, we have to be careful to assure that each word, each spoken sentence, is aligned with our deeper sentience and whole-bodied knowing in each and every moment. It’s about all of us, always, moving more into Flow…

This is hard to do, when we have always more veils to pull away within ourselves, and ever-more areas of numbness to re-enliven… We might feel that we’re not ‘there’ yet, or that we have to be really good at doing this before we should really let it happen… But there’s a certain equilibrium of feeling, of trusting and letting ‘something’ flow through us (through our own inimitable uniqueness) – not any old thing flowing through; being skilled enough in our human being to hold the space for ‘something’ Divine, something mysterious, special, whole, pure, True – and to let it be us, our biodiverse intimacy of beingness. It’s all about tweaking, really!

The more we do this, enter into divine Flow, the more mastery we have of it. And slowly, our life becomes filled with Flow, and we radiate Flow, bring things into Flow, however we interact with all things.

Creative Flow, Birth, Ecstasy – Divine Flow

I’ll be announcing openings in the new year for The Divine Creative mentoring programme, which will be supporting the immense creative potential of wise humans like yourself, in challenges like this reweaving of the divine feminine into our world… In the meantime:

Click here to download a current copy of my art catalogue – and here to see my arthouse for sale website.

Go to Vacation With An Artist to learn how you can visit Guardia Sanframondi in Italy, and work side by side with me in my studio.

And visit The School of Real Art on Teachable, to get immediate access to my teachings and podcast collections – and see The Divine Creative to hear about my soon-to-launch mentoring programme.

Blessings on your day, and on your creative expansion into the divinity of life,